DeLano Bound - Hanging In The Balance

Hanging In The Balance

September, 2010

This has been a difficult update for me to make. I've procrastinated and procrastinated and then I put it off because of what it symbolizes: a coming full circle on in my bondage life. And by acknowledging that fact, I bring myself to a potential ending of sorts. After this set I have no more image galleries to post. We haven't shot since last year at SEAF and opportunities are just not coming up as fast as I want them to. So, from a certain point of view, I'm at an end point. Or maybe a crossroads: change it, let it go, dive deeper.

When I first came to the realization of the crossroads, I had the thought of maybe reincorporating some similar types of content from my first on-line incarnation, i.e. role play photo shoots, shoots revolving around a "storyline" or fantasy setup. I can't, however, go backwards. I've been there and done that and that kind of work doesn't appeal to me in the same way. It was fun back then but it rings a bit hollow for me now.

I don't want to let the site go. Doing this means too much to me. I have too much invested in these explorations to let them go. Not just because we always make great pictures but because each shoot I do sheds light on how much fun I think this is and causes me to reflect on the nature of my kink. Being a rope slut is a vital part of my life. It helps define who I am in the world, even when the world at large doesn't know about it. I have some measure of resilience that I've reinforced through the rigors of my rope play. My deepest rope head spaces have enhanced my personal meditative and reflexive thinking abilities. This site allows me to bring that to whomever wants to see it and lets me illustrate what's possible in rope/kink life. That's important.

So I'm going to dive deeper; I'm going to go deeper with my closer ropemates and find the right people with whom to share new connective rope adventures. I'm going to look more closely at what makes us tick and gives us the ability to share so much with each other. I'll try to post conversations with, and comments from, the folks with whom I shoot and show the different ways our experiences affect us all. It could take some time to bring all of that together but I'll make sure the site is here when it happens.

I have to take this opportunity to thank Michele, Skye, Yin and a visitor who wrote me a lovely email, for helping me figure out some of the above.

Namaste,

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