March, 2007
I am currently starring in The Curse That Wouldn't Die, a B-grade horror picture that I had a hand in writing (read: my ex-marriage), which has come back to haunt me in a way I never expected. The circumstances of this zombie flick are such that it could cost me financially to make sure that the undead creature finally stays out of my living world. That fact galls me to no end but the cost to my spirit would be greater. Maybe I should invest in several pounds of salt, just in case. End of personal rant.
But this still brings up an issue of trust for me. Trust is something I hold dear in all my relationships, be they scene-oriented or not. I strive to be trustworthy in my life and trust is the basis of my rope play. I have to trust the people who are stringing me up and I have to earn and keep the trust of the people whom I am tying or else I don't play/shoot. Outside the scene, I have to trust and be trusted in my closest relationships or else they fall apart. There's nothing worse than finding out that someone you once held close has totally violated your trust. It causes you to reevaluate your life and how you form attachments and relationships. This isn't necessarily a bad thing but it is a painful thing.
In happier news, I got to play with Skye for the first time at an event (The Boston Fetish Flea) in a long time! It was just us playing around without cameras or a real time limit and we had so much fun! It was the first suspension we've done since I don't know when and we both enjoyed it thoroughly. I'm always happy to find myself in Skye's rope and when she makes me fly, it's something special to both of us. It was wonderful having Michele there to watch and hold safe space for us, too. I like when she gets a chance to watch without having to worry about "getting the shot".
Michele and I had a fantastic time at the Seattle Erotic Art Festival! What an inspiring event! It was wonderful to be there with her and get an opportunity to see her in her element. And I got an line on a possibility to do a project of my own there in Seattle. I'll have more to say about that when I firm up the details in the future.
Anyway here's praying for peace and balance for us all.
Namaste,
